Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I suck.

Seriously.  Look at the size of me!  My head looks so small on top of that giant body.  I'm back up to 191 pounds of disgustingness.  God help me.  I need help, but it needs to come from within.  I've struggled for so long now that I don't even know where to get the strength, determination and courage from.

SIGH...

3 comments:

Jennifer said...

You don't suck, you are just overeating and under exercising.

You are a good person who deserves happiness and love.

Be kind to yourself.

Live each day with a plan.

Have small obtainable goals.

Seek professional help.

Remember you are capable of anything.

Anonymous said...

Not really sure how I came across you but I have a little something to say! I used to have the same problem as you- major emotional eating. I started dieting at sixteen years old & developed an emotional eating habit. It lasted for about 3 years. At one point, it was so bad, I would stay up really eat and just "binge" away my emotions. I thought I was SO abnormal and I never imagined I would ever get past this. I can honestly say that I am no longer an emotional eater! It has taken a lot of time. I did a lot of reading & saw a lot of therapists at first which was only really helpful in the sense that it made me realize HOW COMMON this problem is for women. Then I started to use postive affirmations which I thought was crazy at first...but eventually actually started to love my body. Now I can look at my curves and love my body no matter what. We are who we are so we may as well love ourselves no matter what...who will if we don't?! Then I started to focus on HEALTH...how great I felt after a long walk, a bike ride, fresh air, hiking, being outside. I would go for a walk..even if it was just a long walk to get some icecream...getting excercise really gets your body working..and will have a much easier time digesting all that food! haha. But when you excercise, you will start to crave the healthier foods...salads, fruits, vegetables, fish, etc. I started working at Whole foods for a few months and really got into health food. Then I started school for holistic nutrition and learned a lot about food...healthy food! And now I feel good about food! I don't feel guilty about food anymore...it's how we survive. I have learnt what foods make me feel best. Personally, I avoid dairy & wheat and eat a lot of fresh, whole, raw foods. Although, no one eats a perfect diet!! I aim for 80 percent healthy but always choose something I actually enjoy...otherwise you are setting yourself up for a binge. Go for the healthiest possible choice that you know you will actually enjoy. Pick up some already prepared healthy salads and soups from Whole foods! Have healthy snacks like hummus & guacamole with mary's wheat free crackers or veggies! And lots of yummy fruits! You can get non dairy icecream @ whole foods made with agave nectar which is a less fattening sugar! Hmm...all of these things are just little details that all add up. Always eat as much fruit and veggies as you want...and veggie soup..you can eat as much as you want!! I also take fiber supplements which helps to regulate blood sugar levels...helps with sugar cravings..and make you feel full! I really hope this advice helps because I sure wish someone said this to me a few years ago...luckily I made it through and I feel great! I'm pregnant now & I'm enjoying eating healthy! No longer do I think about my body in a physical way...it's all about feeling healthy. I do have to say that once you get on track with respecting your body and loving yourself, a relationship might help you too! My boyfriend really helped me to get through this without even knowing it. To have him around all the time, took my mind off my habit and got me back to being ME! :) Let me know if you have any questions or want to talk. As you can see, I'm pretty passionate about this. Haha.

phembot said...

I will be there soon.
We will do this together!

You do not suck.

We can do this.

 

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