I was thrilled to find that nobody was angry with me, other than myself. The sad bit is, when speaking with J, I found that I had been spouting off about how gross, disgusting and fat I am and that it was okay for my friends to think that of me because it was true. I need to change the record because I'm tired of this same old tune.
The other really sad thing is, I blew my good eating habits yesterday. As much as this is going to hurt, I have to show you what I ate yesterday.
Gluttony:
Breakfast
Cuppa with SUGAR and milk
1 piece of toast with butter and full-sugar jam
Pack of Ritz crackers (100 cal.)
1/2 grande London Fog (1% milk and full sugar vanilla)
1 large sesame bagel with two small packets of full fat cream cheese
1/4 cranberry bliss bar
Lunch
Grilled cheese sandwich
2 glasses of Kool-Aid
Small bowl of tomato soup (loaded with sodium)
2 crackers
On the train
Mug of hot chocolate
One sugar cookie
Supper
Veggie burger on a giant bun with mayonnaise
Frings of which I left most of the fries, but only because they tasted weird
Diet Pepsi
Apres supper
Diet Pepsi
100 calorie pack of Ritz crackers
Balance of the cranberry bliss bar
One thing I've noticed is that whenever I am feeling crappy about myself, I always end up reaching for (food, yes) but also Diet Pepsi. It's weird. When I'm eating healthily, I don't even really think about drinking DP. Odd that.
Today I am struggling to even want to get back on track. I must persevere.
Cupcake
xo
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Oh Allison, I didn't mean to make you sad! I am sorry, but we do need to change the record...maybe if I just push your arm everything you say something not positive about youself, we can skip over those thoughts to your true tune.
:)
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